worst times. I just know that friends will always be by my side and hopefully..you have friends too. At some other times, I feel that some friends just "say" they are your friends. I mean..everyone has used someone before in their life either because the friend was LOADED, or cause of popularity, etc. I sometimes feel that this certain girl is using me. She constantly tells me that shes my friend, but I always figure out that shes talking behind my back, or inviting everyone to parties, except for me. She said she was okay with me now, but I hear people tell me things. I don't know why she won't do anything right up in my face, but I also don't know why she can't just cooooooooooooool it. BUT. Thinking about it, she is the only one that does this to me..or is she? I know that I have TONS of friends that truly care about me, and I am glad. So, I guess there are true friends, everywhere, but there are also going to be a few fake ones. Hmm..I'll compare it to a bag of chips. Sometimes, when you open a bag of chips, some will be perfectly yummy, and others will just taste like shit. good friends=yummy chips fake friends=chips that taste like shit. :) the end.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Bag of Chips.
Lately, I have noticed that friends can make everything better. They could cheer you up..even at the worst times. I just know that friends will always be by my side and hopefully..you have friends too. At some other times, I feel that some friends just "say" they are your friends. I mean..everyone has used someone before in their life either because the friend was LOADED, or cause of popularity, etc. I sometimes feel that this certain girl is using me. She constantly tells me that shes my friend, but I always figure out that shes talking behind my back, or inviting everyone to parties, except for me. She said she was okay with me now, but I hear people tell me things. I don't know why she won't do anything right up in my face, but I also don't know why she can't just cooooooooooooool it. BUT. Thinking about it, she is the only one that does this to me..or is she? I know that I have TONS of friends that truly care about me, and I am glad. So, I guess there are true friends, everywhere, but there are also going to be a few fake ones. Hmm..I'll compare it to a bag of chips. Sometimes, when you open a bag of chips, some will be perfectly yummy, and others will just taste like shit. good friends=yummy chips fake friends=chips that taste like shit. :) the end.
worst times. I just know that friends will always be by my side and hopefully..you have friends too. At some other times, I feel that some friends just "say" they are your friends. I mean..everyone has used someone before in their life either because the friend was LOADED, or cause of popularity, etc. I sometimes feel that this certain girl is using me. She constantly tells me that shes my friend, but I always figure out that shes talking behind my back, or inviting everyone to parties, except for me. She said she was okay with me now, but I hear people tell me things. I don't know why she won't do anything right up in my face, but I also don't know why she can't just cooooooooooooool it. BUT. Thinking about it, she is the only one that does this to me..or is she? I know that I have TONS of friends that truly care about me, and I am glad. So, I guess there are true friends, everywhere, but there are also going to be a few fake ones. Hmm..I'll compare it to a bag of chips. Sometimes, when you open a bag of chips, some will be perfectly yummy, and others will just taste like shit. good friends=yummy chips fake friends=chips that taste like shit. :) the end.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
LIFE KINDA..SUCKS.
WELLLLLLLL. I haven't posted anything up for a LONG ASS time. So..here it goes. These days...I have been through so much shit..I think. I feel that my life totally changed. I think differently about myself. I seem to act differently to myself. I mean..I've done some "things" to my body..that I would have never thought of doing ever before..in my life. On the outside..I try to look like the happiest person alive..I NEVER like showing my sad..side to anyone...but lately..my feelings are revealed to others..on the inside..I have been so stressed and frustrated with myself. UGHHHHH. finals are over..and I got straight As and Os..but why am I so..unhappy? I don't know..I just need someone to talk to..but no one seems to ask..or care enough.. I am trying to think positively..but sometimes..it just doesn't work. I struggle through life everyday..but no one seems to notice..and I'm glad that they don't. Usually..people think of me as a bitch..because I come off to be very blunt...and I could care less what others say..although recently..I got real hurt when someone said something to me.. People thought it was nothing..but I took it very seriously. I have no clue..why some seniors in highschool are so nice..and yet some are so mean. I just don't get it. Most of them treat me great..they drive me out to places, invite me to go place, and even care for me when I'm down. I know that next year, when they are all gone..I'll feel a little bad..and miss them..BUT in the long run. I know that hanging with them at times will build my bucket??? of friends. (awkward)
Another issue..I was suppose to go snowboarding tomorrow..but it got cancelled..FORTUNATELY, a senior invited me to go snowboarding with a few others. HE WILL TEACH ME! AND ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS ARE LETTING ME BORROW HER CLOTHES! I can't wait. I am aware that the first time..will be hard.. BUTTTT. I will do fine..I think..2 seniors that are going with me..promised to help me. I am looking forward to this day :) Whoa..it's pretty..late.. and yet. I am oovooing with someone right now. HAHAAHa. ugh..I'm kinda tired right now..Posting this really helped.. BYEEEEEEEEEEE~
Another issue..I was suppose to go snowboarding tomorrow..but it got cancelled..FORTUNATELY, a senior invited me to go snowboarding with a few others. HE WILL TEACH ME! AND ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS ARE LETTING ME BORROW HER CLOTHES! I can't wait. I am aware that the first time..will be hard.. BUTTTT. I will do fine..I think..2 seniors that are going with me..promised to help me. I am looking forward to this day :) Whoa..it's pretty..late.. and yet. I am oovooing with someone right now. HAHAAHa. ugh..I'm kinda tired right now..Posting this really helped.. BYEEEEEEEEEEE~
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